So....I received a message in my inbox about people having goals versus having systems. (I signed up for one of those "how to get rich" things. Yeah so what. It probably won't help, but it was free. High five for free). Really, when I first read it I was inspired. In my enthusiastic surfer voice I said, "Yeah, I'm gonna get a system goin n get my life together, n make things happen, n do all this kul stuff that I actually wanna do n it's gonna be great!" But after today something is telling me that I have many more things to weigh before I can just start on a system. Forget goals because I never liked to make them. I would either change my mind about what I wanted my final goal to be or never accomplish them anyway. Doesn't really work. So, instead I want to have a "get through it the best way I know how plan," and the "it" I'm referring to is life. Let's say it again LIFE. And mine compared to others is pretty awesome right now, but I'm not living other's lives, so I can only think about my own. (No judging okay. I still think about the starving and homeless people too, but really I have to get myself together before I can save the world).
Anyways. Plans for myself:
1.) Stop smoking cigarettes-pretty much accomplished although days like today really makes day 21 feel like day 5...DUDE CAN YOU BELIEVE IT'S DAY 21????!!!!
2.) Save up money- totally working on it, but with a car that needs to go to the shop every other month it's a little more than rough
3.) Work on my short film-so I am a slacker...a big one. I wish I had an excuse for not pursuing this dream more fervently, but I really don't. I'll work on one during the rest of this blog and get back to you.
4.) Find things to be grateful about- so I'm really referring to my job in this one because I could name you a billion things that I am grateful for right now, but man, this job is testing me. I am grateful to even have a job and blah blah but I am so bored at work. I had a mini meltdown today screaming "Whyyyyyyy ooohhh whyyyyhiiihiiiiwhyyyyy???!!" at my desk because I didn't want to be there at all....so, I didn't really scream, but I was close. I wasn't quiet at all though let me tell you. I couldn't keep my frustration in for anything.
What I really need help with right now to be able to accomplish the "get through it the best way I know how plan" is knowing HOW TO STAY POSITIVE WHEN NEGATIVITY SURROUNDS YOU?? I look out my window and see poverty stricken people, my people having a hard ass time (hard ass life really), I see people with dreams wasted, our country is in a recession, bills are due, rent is past due, my baby's loans are due, my car might implode if I push it from 45 to 65 tomorrow on the expressway. No joke, Memphis makes me sad sometimes just by seeing all of the lost greatness that this city has to offer. There's so much potential here that people don't take advantage of...well actually some people do, but they are the rich ones who use what's left of the city to get richer and leave the rest of the people with scraps. Man, it's just driving me a little crazy to see all of these things and still try to make it in the world and be somebody. Whatever being somebody even means!!!
In conclusion, operation "Just do it" commences today. I'm just going to do whatever needs to be done to accomplish my goal/system/plan, which is now and will be until I decide to change it to "work towards my dreams while trying to stay happy, not worrying about pleasing others, not getting caught up in ruts but using these so called ruts to my advantage and turning them into a stepping stone, and not worrying about THE MAN trying to crush me because I'm skating under him/them or cutting through. Beep beep. Make way!" So, it's a little long but I think it'll work. I hope Nike doesn't try to get me for copyright infringement.
Just do it eh? I like it. I've kinda been taking a similar approach lately. Its hard though, when taking the very time to think about life, enough to change or succeed in your life, generally takes time away from doing what you need to do right now to survive.
ReplyDeleteFor me that brings up the question, based upon your remarks about memphis and poverty, how can we expect people to grow and evolve as a society or even individually, when their own quality of life prevents them from being able to do so. How can we think about life when all we can think about is survival? That basically says money doesnt buy happiness but man it sure gives us the ability to find it.
I love your energy. I wanna see examples of you just doing it though. I wanna see how your plan works for you, cuz I'm trying to get on that level too.After reflection on your post and deep deliberation, I have decided to revise my plan to OPERATION: JUST FUCK IT. It has a nice ring to it don't ya think? Stay tuned to my blog for a more detailed plan of attack and subsequent progress reports :)
Love you girl